Last night I swallowed liquor and a liter. . .

I'm so sick of waiting for anything from you. Waiting for you is like waiting for a comet to come along. It'll happen just not for a very long time. . .




On a higher note I'm working on it and I'm getting a cellular this week. Pleasing.

"You are everything I once had..."-The Honorary Title

"Oh yeah she's with me and I'm your man, If I can't find you no one can."-Red Hot Chili Peppers

Ok well I was doing this then I just found THE song.

 

"Tell me what you thought about
When you were gone and so alone
The worst is over
You can have the best of me
We got older but we're still young
We never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

Here we lay again
On two separate beds
Riding two phone lines
To hear familiar voice
And pictures brought from memory
We reflect on miscommunication
An misunderstandings
And missing each other two
Much too without you, let go

We turn our music down
And we whisper
Say wat your thinking right now
Tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
The worst is over
But you can have the best of me
We got older but we're still young
We never grew out this feeling that we wont give up

Jumping to conclusions
Made me fall away from you
I'm so glad that the truth
Has brought back together me and you

We're sitting on the ground
And we whisper
Say what your thinking out loud

Tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
The worst is over
But you can have the best of me
We got older but we're still young
We never grew out this feeling that we wont give up

We turn our music down
And we whisper
We're sitting on the ground
And we whisper
We turn our music own
We're sitting on the ground
And the next time I'm in town
We will kiss girl
We will kiss girl

Tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
The worst is over
But you can have the best of me
We got older but we're still young
We never grew out this feeling that we wont give up
Feeling that we cant
We're not ready to give up

We got older but we're still yong
We never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up"

Best of Me-The Starting Line




Is what's right always what's best? When do you stop fighting for what's best and fight for what should be?
 When will I be able to call you mine???

Not even a photographic memory could retain the feels WE felt that night. . . .oh summah time.

We'll things have been odd. I would have to say in all honesty moving to Michigan was probably the biggest mistake of my life, but I think I made a bigger one by moving back. But no regrets, no regrets. Just live and let die. I really wish things where the way the use to be, but there is never any use in crying over spilt milk. Probably the best thing that moving to Michigan did for me is it showed me who I am and who my friends are. I mean I hate that two of my great friends and I no longer speak for all the wrong reasons. And I think it is just terrible it took a boxing match for me and one of friends for many years, to realize we were being completely childish. I hate how everything is suppose to happen for all the right reasons when it seems like it happening for all the wrong reasons. But enough about hating. Hating never did anything good to anybody. I love how it's almost baseball season and that football is just months away. And that's about it. I got the cruise next month and I can't wait.

To talk to you would make me so happy. The fact that it could be a bad thing pains me to think, I was the end of us. If everything happens for a reason this better be good or I might just have to change the way that works. End of story. These thoughts, these walks they are all killing me. I can't stand to be up there anymore. Looking at the stars pains me. And to buy a grape slushie could be the end of everything i believe in. . .

Just like the lady in the blue dress,
You've got cigarettes on your breath,
Hairspray and some cheap perfume
I'll put a little sour in your sweet.
You've got so much fucking tongue in cheek
You want what you could never have

You say that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself.
Cause all that I see right now,
Is someone whose lost and encircled.

So you say, that I am rated X.
You suffer from the lack of sex.
Black heart and your lipstick smeared.
Your points are trite, and not too sober
to deal with your running over.
Your sane, but that ain't cleche lines.

You say that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself.
Cause all that I see right now,
Is someone whose lost and encircled.

Don't try to be cute with me
Cause I know you hate yourself.
And you'd end your stupid lies now
but your too spineless.

Just like the lady in the blue dress,
You've got cigarettes on your breath,
Hairspray and some cheap perfume

You say that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself.
Cause all that I see right now,
Is someone whose lost and encircled.

Hit me with your light
I'm lost without your help
me find the right way out
I miss the way it was
Can anybody hear me
Crying out for love
me like a newborn baby
I can only dream

Hit me with your light
Will you catch me if I fall
I would give my life
If it meant anything at all
Lord help me carry on
Will you be there when I'm gone

So come escape the night
I'm stuck inside this moment
It's all that keeps me goin'
Callin' out for truth
I battle with the times we fight to find eachother
Afraid we might discover who we really are

Hit me with your light
Will you catch me if I fall
I would give my life
If it meant anything at all
Lord help me carry on
Will you be there when I'm gone
I'm gone

Hit me with your light
Will you catch me if I fall
I would give my life, yea
If it meant anything at all
Lord help me carry on
Will you be there when I'm gone

She seen trust in all of me, stretched across my shame.
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through the cover in me
Id do anything ever to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I dont know what to do, I dont know what to do when she makes me sane.

She is everything to me
The unaquited dream
A song that no one sings
The unobtainable, Shes a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I dont know what to do, I dont know what to do when she makes me sane

But I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me

A catch in my throat
Choke, dawn into pieces I wont
No, I dont want to be this

But I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me

She isnt real
I can make her real
She isnt real
I can make her real














I'm sorry to have to be the bad guy. b/c i know all to well i am. i miss you end of story.

So here's the low down on my life in bulletted format
-i officially rock the converse spectacles
-i gained about 20 lbs and im still skinny
-some how i like rap again but im still totally more for punk rawk
-i'm still a giant
-i miss all my homezes
-there is a 75% chance im going to need surgery on my ankle
-walking hurts (let it be known)
-i want my snowboard
-i'm into my last week of football
-tom petty is the shiz
and i dont know what else if i think of more ill update later but other than that its just the same old shit different day. but holla at me

Schwedzy